i hate how school sometimes defines me. first time meeting someone and you find out their age and grade and the inevitable “oh j2? where?” and somehow the answer ends the blossoming friendship most of the time. even in sec three at the ayg appreciation concert the group of girls sitting behind the three of us were so chatty and everything. then came the question “btw which school are you guys from”, and they didn’t utter a single word to us after a resounding “oh”. does the school name sound that distancing? going back to primary school after all these years and still getting pointed and whispered at. no one even approaches me except for those in my class. it’s just frustrating you know. being in this school doesn’t make me inhuman or something but sometimes it makes me feel so. urgh.

went with juniors haha (: m.y. justin celine yf daryl kt (: dinner was macs at plaza sing! bought flowers and we were super late haha missed whole of silverado and half of p.o.e. justin v heartbroken hahahaha x) inn of sixth happiness was not too bad but i thought rg’s was better haha (: ensembles were… okay la. saxes were honestly not v good. horns were damn bloody good o.o percs were damn funny haha and not too bad (: didn’t bother listening to the clars oops. average i guess. nothing that made me go whoa or whoa shit so i guess that’s okay.  but seriously their brasses are overpowering -.- exact opposite of our j1 batch haha oops. can transfer a few over!! haha. got a ice mocha from coffee bean. #worstcoffeeofmylife. never gonna get coffee from there again lol gonna stick to their espirits and snapple.

got back at like 2300++ -.- but quite awake oops haha been chatting on msn till now. i like late night talks haha i like the atmosphere i guess. everything feels a lot calmer.

yea i guess i need the calmness

dunno why i’m getting so worked up over things haha

can’t i just let it be

saturday already that’s one quarter of june hols gone o.o three weeks to ct2 omg ._. i’ve been studying okay! though admittedly not a lot but still it’s an improvement haha :p things have been pretty chaotic.

chalet ended on tuesday and we ended up at jinghui’s house for mj with irvin wk and phil haha i won a little i think can’t rmb :/

was at the lib on wed doing econs omg it’s the most sian thing ever which is why i’m on tumblr now -.- seriously it’s just lines and pages and stacks of words. with graphs which kinda makes the words easier to understand but still… the words &$%#$@*%. so i just spent my entire evening reading and copying and writing haha sounds super productive right but i don’t think i digested much of it sigh.

went to watch snow white and the huntsman on thursday with batch haha (: sam claflin is damn cute :> movie wasn’t that good though it was just a lot of action and graphics :/ and the graphics were disgusting omg in the forest omg gross. went to study for a while with jy finally got normal distribution omg stats is gonna fail my maths!! not funny anymore ._. met gladys for dinner at ramenplay :D haha first time eating there i don’t exactly like it too much. 

parents are in msia without leaving me money or food or anything thanks

i’m still confused :/ and sligtly annoyed urgh i dunno why but it’s damn easy for me to get annoyed at stuff these few days

1. j

2. friends. it’s like no one’s trying to keep us together anymore you know? i get it that we’re busy now with acads and what not but really, do you have to ditch your friends aside entirely for the next six full months to prepare for your a levels? i don’t think so. and i hate it how some people are getting so attention seeking now. okay you know more people. okay you’re more popz with boys. okay you have scandals. okay everyone’s attention is on you. whoaaaaa okay can. idgaf. how can you possibly be happy that you (finally) have a scandal??? does popularity mean that much to you? and just fyi i didn’t ditch you guys for him. i ditched him for you guys and just went back to him afterwards so stop making a fuss out of it as though i’m choosing him over you guys wtf. and i’m also annoyed at some people who go bojio at everything. has it occurred to you that maybe people don’t want to jio you -.- btw i’m not just talking about just one person here so stop guessing. urgh major bitching session sorry.

3. b. lots of backstabbing going on and right after that happened -.- i give up. you guys do wtv you want i’m staying clear of everything. call me a traitor i don’t care. i don’t care anymore okay.

leaving for hwach band concert to support m.y. and bryan haha (: their repertoire looks pretty haha looking forward to it (:

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